A very wise editor once gave me a simple piece of writing advice: write from where you are, not from where you want to be. In naming this blog, “Sanity Break,” my hope is that it becomes a place of trust and honest rambling among persons who are struggling to live life normally—to function at work and at home, to be able to make it to the grocery store without breaking down in tears, to be able to laugh at a stupid joke or a comical remark by a 10-year-old … all the stuff people who aren’t handicapped by sadness and panic do.
So here’s where I am, which is different from where I want to be: My amygdala—the childish part of my brain that yells PANIC!—has hijacked my entire limbic system (the emotional center of the brain), and I have been hiding in bathrooms and cars during regular crying spells. I am experiencing a chronic sense of guilt –about petty things like letting the dishes sit overnight and about things out of my control, like my husband’s rash (it was caused by stress, I am giving him stress by being depressed, therefore I gave him the rash). Continue reading …
Could you ask Everyday Health to fix the link–there’s no way to connect to the article either from here or from their site. And btw, Therese, thank you so much for persevering and focusing on your writing and sharing it, despite all the stresses of freelance life. It’s no small gift to all of us!
Thank you very much for this comment. I just published the entire article since the link is down.
You ROCK! I love getting your insights in my inbox, Therese.
How ironic that you can be in the funk — and yet I can benefit from it! At least SOMEONE benefited from it, right?
You really hit it here: “But in the end, you are best served by knowing that other people—persons who appear to be functioning on the outside—bolt to the car and sob just like you, and that you really aren’t alone.”
Because we all go through the challenges, the vacillating emotional cycles in life — every human here on earth — some more, some less. And your frank honesty helps me hold my trials in perspective.
Thanks! And I’m praying for you 🙂
I have had a brutal few weeks – depression has fled my brain and fear has taken up residence – depressed lawyer in Buffalo.