On MLK, Jr. Day: I, Too, Have a Dream

MLK Day.jpgEvery year on MLK, Jr. Day, I like to repost my dream.

 In celebration of Martin Luther King, Jr.:

I have a dream that one day I won’t hold my breath every time I tell a person that I suffer from bipolar disorder, that I won’t feel shameful in confessing my mood disorder.

I have a dream that people won’t feel the need to applaud me for my courage on writing and speaking publicly about my illness, because the diagnosis of depression and bipolar disorder would be understood no differently than that of diabetes, arthritis, or dementia.

I have a dream that the research into genetics of mood disorders will continue to pinpoint specific genes that may predispose individuals and families to depression and bipolar disorder (like the gene G72/G30, located on chromosome 13q), just as specific genes associated with schizophrenia and obsessive-compulsive disorder have been located and identified.

I have a dream that brain-imaging technology will continue to advance in discovering what, exactly, is going on inside the brain, that a neurological perspective coupled with a biochemical approach to mental illness will develop targeted treatments: new medication and better response to particular medications–that we can cut out that painful trial-and-error process.

I have a dream depressives won’t have to risk their jobs in divulging their condition, that employers will respond more empathetically to the country’s 7.8 million working depressives, that the general public will be more educated on mental illness so that it doesn’t cost this country more than $44 billion each year (like it does now).

I have a dream that families, friends, and co-workers will show kindness to depressives, not reproach them for not being stronger, for not having enough will power and discipline and incentive to get well, for not snapping out of it, for not being grateful enough, for not seeing the cup half full, for not controlling their emotions.

I have a dream that tabloids like “In Touch Weekly” won’t lump allegations of Britney Spears’ taking antidepressants into the same category as her 24-hour marriage, all-night clubbing, and pantyless photos–that our world might be more sophisticated and informed than that.

I have a dream that people will no longer use the following terms to describe persons with mental illness: fruity, loony, wacky, nutty, cuckoo, loopy, crazy, wacko, gonzo, nutso, batty, bonkers, ditzy, bananas, and crazy.

I have a dream that spiritual leaders might preach compassion to persons with mental illness, not indict them for not praying hard enough, or in the right way, or often enough, and that judgmental new-age thinkers who blame all illness on blocked energy (in chakras one through seven) might be enlightened to understand that fish oil, mindfulness meditation, and acupuncture can’t cure everything.

I have a dream that health insurance companies will stop serving Satan, and read a medical report every now and then, where they would learn that depression is a legitimate, organic brain disease, and that those who suffer from it aren’t a bunch of weak, pathetic people who can’t cope with life’s hard knocks.

I dream that one day depression won’t destroy so many marriages and families, that better and faster treatment will work in favor of every form of intimacy.

I have a dream that suicide won’t take more lives than traffic accidents, lung disease, or AIDS, that together we can do better to reduce the 30,000 suicides that happen annually in the United States, and that communities will lovingly embrace those friends and families of persons who ran out of hope, instead of simply ignoring the tragedy or attaching fault where none should be.

I have a dream that one day depression, bipolar disorder, and all kinds of mood disorders will lose their stigma, that I won’t have to whisper the word “Zoloft” to the pharmacist at Rite Aid, that people will be able to have loud conversations in coffee shops about how they treat their depression.

Mostly, I dream about a day when I can wake up and think about coffee first thing in the morning, rather than my mood–is it a serene one, a panicked one, or somewhere in between?–and fretting about whether or not I’m heading toward the black hole of despair. I dream that I’ll never ever have to go back to that harrowing and lonely place of depression. That no one else should have to either. But if they do (or if I do), that they not give up hope. Because eventually their tomorrow will be better than their today. And they will be able to dream again too.

 

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16 thoughts on “On MLK, Jr. Day: I, Too, Have a Dream

  1. Therese what a beautiful piece you have written once again oh how I wish you were a phone call away and not on the other side of the world
    Therese I must confess that the first thing I think about is coffee first thing in the morning accompanied by am I going to have one of those days .
    Oh depression how I dont like you I learn nothing from it

  2. Just thank-you!! I love your dream.
    I learn so much from you on behalf of my daughter, ~and my tiny tastes into the world of anxiety (as compared to my daughter who daily lives there…).

  3. Oh boy….. All… All that fish oil for nuttin’? ;-)  (I hope my humor attempt is OK…) Your beautiful dream should of been a reality a long time ago. Even when speaking to medical professionals, I am hesitant to discuss the beast, and how close I came… THANK YOU!!!

  4. Once again, you have written a poignant and compassionate piece regarding the topic of depression and mental illness. Great article, Theresa…THANK YOU! 👍😊❤️

  5. You Know I Wanna Hurt For People My Mother’s Have Bi-polar And The Biological Mother Has Schizophrenia, I Was Let Go Of And Lost My Mom For 13 Years Due To Depression And Mental Illness. A Lover Of The GOD I Have Grown To Know And Living With Addiction Issues That Lead Me To Him I Am Grateful For Because In Rehab Back In 2014 I Had A Demascus Road Awakening And Only New I Truly Lost My Mind But Found My Best Friend, Father, Chastised And Life Giver All In One. A Wake Up So Intense It Is Like Walking With An Imaginary Friend Yet Opulence In Every Direction. This Loving Father YHWH Known To Me As Paw-Paw Literally Raised Me Into A God Fearing Son Because All I Was Before Was A Child. Anyways Not To Rant But My Mental State Is Very Questionable To The Outside World But I Now Know Love And Imaginary Friends Lol Sorry To Rant But Your Dreams Are Touching And Hit A Nerve About Mental Health. I Hope I Made Sense

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