According to psychologist Douglas Eby, one of the primary characteristics of a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) is the inability to process change. The uncertainty of a new path generates anxiety, sometimes so crippling that the person is unable to move forward on the new path in front of her. I am reminded of that this month as I make the significant transition from a job as a defense contractor–a communications advisor to a cloud computing company, with comfortable benefits– to an unstable gig as a freelance writer crafting pieces of mental health. I am following my heart alright, as it’s racing to catch up with me. Every time I sit down to write a piece, I second guess myself and list all the reasons why I’m unqualified to write articles that will technically be read by a few people.
I have felt this way every time I move through a transition. I would panic at the beginning of every semester in college and call my mom in tears, lamenting that there was no way in hell I would be able to complete all the items on the syllabus, that I may as well drop out. She would remind me that I felt the same way last semester and I ended up with okay grades.
Transition does that to us sensitive types.
Yesterday, in the midst of my heart palpitations, I reviewed my list of tools to tackle this animal, anxiety, in light of my transition. Here are a few exercises that have helped me cope with transition anxiety in the past and that I’m actively employing lately to keep me productive in a time of uncertainty.
Duh. Every advice piece on depression and anxiety lists this one, but for me it is number one. Crucial. Because, short of popping some Ativan—which I can’t do as a recovering alcoholic–swimming laps is the only activity that is effective at giving me immediate relief. But not any exericise. You need to find the RIGHT exercise for where you are in your life and in your head to give you the relief. Running used to do it for me. During the two suicidal years following the birth of my second kid, I ran six miles a day, and it literally kept me from taking my life. But now I ruminate when I run and it ruins the spiritual experience, if you can actually say that about making yourself hoof it around town. Swimming, on the other hand, won’t let me think too much because I’m counting laps, and nothing is more infuriating as an OCD whackjob than messing up on my count. If I don’t get in the round number of yardage, it bugs me. I can’t let it go.
Exercise relieves anxiety and stress in several ways. First, cardiovascular workouts stimulate brain chemicals that foster growth of nerve cells. Second, exercise increases the activity of serotonin and/or norepinephrine. Third, a raised heart rate releases endorphins and a hormone known as ANP, which reduces pain, induces euphoria, and helps control the brain’s response to stress and anxiety.
You do this one on your own, so you’re halfway there. But do you do it the right way? Because you are missing out on some major toxin release if you aren’t. This number seems high, but your body actually releases 70 percent of its toxins through breathing. If you are not breathing through your diaphragm, you’re not getting the full effect. Over time, the toxins build up which can cause anxiety, stress, even illness. By releasing carbon dioxide that has been passed through your bloodstream into your lungs, you do your body and its metabolism a favor. When I remember to breathe deeply, I feel immediate relief. It’s the difference between full-blown panic and regular panic.
There are all sorts of deep breathing exercises. I’m simple and not all that great at math or patterns, so I merely breathe in, hold it, and breathe out. If I want to get into my OCD mode, I will start counting. However, all it takes sometimes are a few intentional long breaths before I naturally move my breath from the chest to the diaphragm. Swimming is a deep breathing exercise for me, as it forces a cadence of breath for an hour, or as long as I’m in the pool.
3. Understand the language of the amygdala.
The amygdala, the almond cluster in your brain that is responsible for the message, “OH MY GOD, THE WORLD IS ENDING,” gets a bad rap. But it should because it is constantly sending us panicked notes, which aren’t at all helpful to persons like myself already prone to anxiety. In order to tell this nut to shut the hell up, it’s helpful to learn its language. In her book, “Extinguishing Anxiety,” Catherine Pittman (a professor at my alma mater Saint Mary’s College), explains how the amygdala processes events so that we know better how to communicate with the alarmist. The amygdala pairs a trigger with a negative event. So, let’s say a car accident involved someone honking a horn prior to the person getting hit. The horn becomes the trigger. Before the negative event, a horn was a horn; now it evokes fear and panic. Fear learning can occur to a variety of objects, sounds, or situations. In my case, I’m sure some of my panic goes back to certain events of my childhood. Get real. Doesn’t everyone’s? Those memories have deep roots, so every time I experience substantial change, my amygdala yells, “Here it comes. Hell is around the corner!” I have to remind myself that transitioning to freelance work isn’t related to the separation of my parents in the fifth grade. My amygdala must get over it.
4. Take the local lane.
Another insight Pittman offers in her book is to classify our reaction to a stimulus (for me, right now, switching careers) in one of two ways. Our brains can take the express lane, which means that the thalamus part of our brain—a symmetrical structure of our brain perched on top of the brain cell which is responsible for relaying sensory and motor signals to the cerebral cortex– delivers a message straight to the amygdala … which, of course, tells us to panic. OR the brain can take the local lane, the high road, in which the thalamus sends its information to the sensory cortex, where additional processing and refining of the information take place, before it goes to the amygdala. In the latter case, the amygdala doesn’t have as much material to wig out over.
5. Go From No to Know
Brilliant language, I think, from psychologist Tamar E. Chansky, Ph.D. This means taking the message, “No, I can’t. No, I can’t. No. No. No.” to the prefrontal cortex, or more sophisticated part of the brain, where we can break it down. We identify the distorted thoughts – like, um, All or Nothing? Then we get a little more information. For me, I must remind myself that I never do well in times of transition; to not be so hard on myself; that I have written over a thousand mental health articles in the past, so I can probably do it again; and to go through the motions, breathe, and swim until I feel a tad more stable.
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Thank you for your blog. I find the articles most helpful. I suffer from Major Depression and OCD and had to give up a lucrative career of almost 40 years because of burn out from a job that was becoming more and more difficulty to handle. The company would not add more people for more than 3 years even though the workload warranted it and things just got out of hand for me. I was the main breadwinner for our family and for 30 years I was able to handle my OCD but under the growing intense conditions of this particular job the OCD and my subsequent “meltdown” made me decide with the support of my husband and doctors that I needed to resign. This month is my year anniversary from being away from the job. I was competent at my job, enjoyed the work,people and miss the challenge of it but my health was suffering. Never in my wildest dreams did I think this would happen to me. I keep myself busy volunteering during the week and benefit from there social interaction. However, much was lost – job, excellent salary and benefits, good work friends and my confidence to move on and live. I keep thinking this is a second chapter in my life and want to be hopeful for it. Thank God for a caring and loving husband. He does not understand all that I am going through but stands beside me. Grateful for you and your blog. Sincerely, Helene
starting a new job today so this was extra timely!
You can tell amygdala to pipe down because you’ve turned in a polished article in spite of whatever anxiety you are experiencing. Good luck for the future.
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I have experienced this anxiety many times in my life — when faced with new challenges in schools, or career, etc. Each time I successfully mastered the change, I became less anxious about the next one. I learned that it was crucial to set my teeth and move ahead, because any cop-out would likely only create new anxiety.
Your history of success after so many challenges assures me that I was on the right track — just as you have been! Thank you,