On Rejecting the False Promise of Addiction

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alcoholI used to think that once you put down the drink, you were fixed; that once you conjured up the courage to quit your addiction, the hard work was over. But addicts are never really cured. Like cancer survivors, they simply stay in remission for the duration of their lives. There is always a person, place, or thing in their horizon promising them the way to the land of unicorns and fairies, a detour from the painful stuff of life.

“Is it still hard for you to not to drink?” a friend asked me recently when I celebrated my sobriety anniversary.

“Sometimes,” I said, not sure how to explain what addiction looks like in someone’s brain, or how addicts think.

“Addiction is a process of buying into false and empty promises: the false promise of relief, the false promise of emotional security, the false promise of fulfillment, and the false sense of intimacy with the world,” writes Craig Nakken in his book “The Addictive Personality.” It’s less about the object of the addiction—vodka, pot, Marlboro Lights, Hershey bars, Starbucks, work, the married woman you need to sleep with—and more about the process of filling the hole in the soul, the chronic ache that all addicts have in common.

I have gotten used to a life without alcohol. Having quit before I graduated from high school, I have survived all social functions of my adult life without a glass of merlot in my hand—even the awkward business ones where I didn’t know a soul and was the only one in a cocktail dress. I have learned how to dress up sparkling water to resemble a martini or some other acceptable cocktail in order to avoid the “Why don’t you drink?” conversation.

As Nakken explained, my temptation is to use anything mood altering to get wasted, anything that has a shot of numbing the ache.

I talked with nutritional expert and physician Pam Peeke the other day about her latest book, “The Hunger Fix,” which lays out the science to prove that fatty, sugary, salty processed foods produce in a food addict’s brain the same chemical reaction as addictions to crack cocaine and alcoholism.

She explained that for those of us who have a genetic load toward addiction, it may be difficult to do anything in moderation. We are programmed to get to that overstimulation point, no matter the element; however, we have the power to change our gene expression. By making lifestyle decisions (exercise, meditation, yoga, good diet) that promote and protect our health, we can “write in the margins of our genome,” she said.

This isn’t to say that we’re no longer addicts. I think as long as there is a Godiva store somewhere in our world, I will always match the description of an addict. Most recovering alcoholics I know would concur that they have a “thinking” problem more than a drinking problem in that the thrill with which they hope to fill the empty pockets of the soul starts in the head.

However, with each decade I’m sober, I can more easily recognize the false promises whispered into my ears and spend less energy exploring their paths. Experience tells me there is no such thing as a pain-free life, even after you’ve put down the drink. Sobriety is about identifying the things in your life that are real and good and true, one day at a time, 28 years later.

Published originally on Sanity Break.

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Therese Borchard
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7 Responses
  1. Steve

    Here it is, so clear, true and wise. And- SO hard! Thanks for the strength these words give- small steps, all steps, every day of our lives.

  2. Maggie M

    I loved this article! I come from a family full of alcoholics and pot addicts. The thing that they all have in common is that they love to get trashed. That’s something that is foreign to me because I can’t stand to lose control. That need for control may be the thing that prevents me from becoming an alcoholic, too. Not that I will EVER make that assumption because I know that I have the same gene as my siblings! It has been a huge issue between me and my siblings, because they want me to party hard with them, but when I won’t I’m told that, “I just think I’m too good to be around them!” No I just don’t want to be around people that are blown out of their minds!
    Thank you!

  3. Monica

    Why are alcoholics and drug addicts so incredibly self absorbed? Is this the borderline personality trait?

  4. Kelly Johnson

    This is just . . . perfection. What a fantastic piece of writing, full of beautiful and very helpful insight.